Marriage?

as far as i'm concerned, i am still single. no wife, ex-wife, kids, or whatsoever. 

"don't you think that it's about time to get married? heck, you don't even have a girlfriend"

well, i don't deny that. there are a few of my friends of the same age who are already married. some of which already have a child. that being said, marriage is not as easy. its not something that you can just wing it. for starter, getting a true love is not easy. i guess we can always pretend to love someone under the pretext of boyfriend-girlfriend relationship. but ultimately, there are few things that need to be considered.

will you still be able to love her in 10, 30, 50 years time? 

will you be able to tolerate her flaws and imperfection for the rest of your life? 

more importantly, will she be able to do the same for you?

so until then, this is how i'll remain to be. 

Life

i guess a lot of people regard me as very mysterious or discreet about my personal life. Its because i don't really feel comfortable sharing those things with random people. so i don't talk about my personal life a lot and people don't ask. more importantly, the sense of insecurity on how people would perceive and judge me on a personal level is the main reason why. well, i have my reasons. but because of that people start to speculate about me. and don't get me wrong. i have no problem with it. there's just some funny moments when people started to ask me questions.

"eh dude, is it true ah that you're actually 28?"

"eh, i heard people said that this is your second degree. is it true?"

"Shapad, are you really married?"

the truth is i was born in 1990. and that makes me 23 this year. i entered CFS when i was 18 and i took foundation in engineering for 2 years. and then i took foundation in laws for another year. after i'm done, i entered gombak campus for a bachelor's degree. i took 1 semester of bachelor in political science before changing back to laws. so currently i'm in my second semester of bachelor in laws.

"why do you do it man? don't you wanna graduate? do u love the university so much?"

 i love to learn different things. not to say that i'm smart (i am NOT!), but learning different things is self-fulfilling to me. i am always curious about everything. having diversified knowledge allows me to understand things more holistically. but well, sometimes they just don't get it. so i just agree on whatever they said

A New Beginning

truth be told, i never thought that i'll ever write again. but i guess its just time for me to start expressing how i feel and what i think.